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2009 is coming to an end soon~ what have you guys achieve in this year? me? i've found my little prince~ i managed to slim down~ iam happy for the early part of the year~ 2010 is coming soon~ what do you wish to achieve for the coming year? me? the more you expect, the more you may be disappointed with. life is just so complicating~ sometimes you just wish you had no troubles with no problems and no stress~ well, Happy 2010 =)

Sometimes,its's not that bad to be alone!

this post came a bit later but nevertheless HAPPY 25TH BIRTHDAY SHERINE =) *muacks* im sure you enjoyed that night a lot =)

as i'll be on leave next week~ its time tO paint my nailsssss~ and thanks tO cousin,simple & nice *happy*

how unlucky can i be last week till now~ last week, consecutive 3 days i've been spilling drinks over on the floor~ and cleaning up the stupid mess~ today even worst, dumbo me actually pour fuit punch onto 'MYSELF' and got all my 'inside' wet..... i feel like slapping myself... i feel like banging myself... how can i be so unlucky during this joyful season~ no idea but just dont really have the 'feel' for xmas this year!

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Dear Santa, I promise to be good~ and i've been well-behave for the past few months~ When twenty-fifth decemeber comes, Santa,i dont ask for much~ 'Just bless everyone around me,my family,dearie,lovely friends in good health,wealth & happiness' love, pEili p/s: Santa,if can maybe add in another muimui or LV bag *ops* haaa~joking!!!

for the past few days~ i've been living in agony i've not been eating well~ i've not been drinking well~ i've not been brushing my teeth well~ i've not been talking clearly~ and i've not been kissing my bf toO~ *muhaha,that's not the main point* the main point is: I've this hUge 8mm concave ULCER~~~ just a tiny winy little ulcer can cause me sOOo much agony!!! Santa,i promise to be good~ please let this ulcer heal faster!!!

boyfriend surprise me with this when im feeling down =)

if there's ever a chance for a day in my life to be ever so perfect~ so flawless~ wouldn't the world be a much better place for me/everyone to fit in? not to be a pessimist~ but it seems so true that unpleasant things, do happen everyday this week! nearing xmas,there should be joy~ but why am i feeling so moody this week~ i tear till i look like a gold fish~ i walk till i look like a zombie~ i feel so listless that i wish im not working now~ i feel so 'slan' that i dont even want to smile to anyone~ i feel so insecure which i should have never be~ hopefully weekends will be better~ i need some chocolates to cheer me up! i need a big hug to calm me down! i need my smile back!

its amazing how times flies~ all the memories that we had~ falling deeply in love in you~ our first date~ our first pinic~ our first bowling session~ our first kl trlp~ our first celebration of bdays~ and many other more outings! appreciate the things you have done for me~ reassure me in every ways~ a part of you has grown in me~ a part of me has grown in you~ im just completely fallen in love with you again & again! Happy 7th hottie =)

my legs,my knees,my joints~ in simple~ the lower half of my body all gave way~

Yu Jun & Jolene 30112009

i must say its a mixed feelings this 2 days~ i can't figure out how exactly i'm feeling right now~ someone told me 'i though u hate to study' my grades aint that fantastic at all in sch~ so what's the reason to make such a quick decision~ its when until a certain 'time' when you get boring with work and work and work again~ this word 'study' pop out from the mind! its when you want to upgrade yourself,learn more things, get more challenge! so i guess its time to study~ i wonder how is it feel like to be back as 'half a student' haa~

i woke uP and find myself drowning in my sweats~ i had a bad dream few days ago~ only had the time to blog now~ a dream which i hope it it'll never ever happen~ if it happen,i probably will get a heart attack. nO more bad dreams please!

-- Part 2 -- Dear Mr Chua On the 104th day, our crab dinner,you know i hate to use hand~ crab by crab,you peel/pluck the meat for me! On the 105th day, tagging along to ECP for your bowling competition~ no worries,im not bored,just want to see you in action =p On the 112nd day, this is the first time we club after being together~ nice feeling,its happy always meeting your friends =) On the 116th day, yipeee,we are gOing on board the cruise~ our 2nd trip together, *tears* because i really love the surprise *hugs* On the 117th day, i love snorkling with you in the deep blue sea,holdings our hands~ sorry,i got you sick after the snorkling! On the 123rd day, staying over your house~ i learn the basic of playing plano *i guess ive forgotten now opss* On the 129th day, just a simple text from you~ to heard my fav song on the radio makes my night sweeter =) On the 138th day when you finally agree to dinner @ my house~ and my parents like you a lot =) On the 139th day, heart pounding badly bec...

im back from taiwan~ freaking cOld in taiwan.... its like 16 degrees lah.... but then~ Singapore is still the best =)

B . U . T

finally another get-away from Singapore~ its a mixed feelings~ perhaps when im back~ i will have a better mind of knowing what i really want! bye Singapore!!! Ahlo Taiwan~~~ p/s: i'll miss you mr chua! *hugs*

nurses or doctors always tell patient must take medications reguarly~ as it heals your sickness to become better~ but when a nurse become a patient itself~ its another way rOund~ conclusion~ i am a difficult patient tO be~

Our first hallOween '09

i've never once exclaimed 'it's over' with a smile before~ perhaps it was becaused i used them for a negative reason~ which is obvious,i dont need to mention. there's always a brighter side in life~ all i've got to do is to just be positive everyday~ and smile =) learn to treasure yourself~ your loves one~ the surrounding people!!! you will feel life is good =)

i guess i've fallen in love with you again =)

its nice & sad!

last week was bad at work~ though it could get better today~ but neverless it turns out worst~ im someone who seldom throw temper~ unless it reaches the top of my head making me flare up. today seems like an unpleasant day with a string of unfortunate events happend through out when the thinking stop, the tears came~ and i guess ive mention a million times i hate my lacrimal glands~ i could never ever stop crying & sort things out... i always tell myself ‘be strong peili,don’t cried’ but the useless tears still flow out in the end! realised who i really am, realised what i’ve actually done realised why do i do this, realised how can i be better in handling things without crying next time.