bElng mysElf

  another year end ~ im kind of sad why didnt the mayan prediction come true ~ at least i know i'll die happily ~ thank you 2012  for the hate that will always be there ~ for the memories and blessing i send to you only ~ for my first time experience of skydiving, backpacking ~ and solo trip again ~ and i did my first 'uncomplete' night marathon ~ i live for myself ~ for all the fun, joy and sadness ~ back to school studying ~ the stress the burden the unwillingness soul ~ in between i make some new friends ~ but along the pathway ~   i lost some close friends ~ isnt this what everyone will experience ~ i laught to myself ~  for a broken heart to ment ~ this is very tough ~ a few tried to make me smile ~ but it seems kind of fake ~ till this heart conquer brain ~ i tried to love again ~ thank you 2012 for this both eventful and uneventful year ~ i do hope 2013 will make me a better and happier person and yea

 If I am lost for a day; try to find me  But if I don't come back, then I won't look behind me  All of the things that I thought were so easy Just got harder and harder each day  December is darkest and June is the light but this empty bedroom won't make anything right While out on the landing a friend I forgot to send home  Who waits up for me all through the night  Calendar girl who's in love with the world Stay alive  Calendar Girl who's in love with the world Stay alive I dreamed I was dying; as I so often do And when I awoke I was sure it was true I ran to the window; threw my head to the sky  And said whoever is up there,please don't let me die But I can't live forever,I can't always be  One day I'll be sand on a beach by a sea  The pages keep turning, I'll mark off each day with a cross  And I'll laugh about all that we've lost  Calendar Girl who is lost to the world Stay Alive  Calendar Girl who

  sometimes i wonder  can one's happiness be so simple ~ yet so complicated ~  sometimes its just hard to let your heart  conquer your brain ~

做了怎样的决定，就要承担怎样的后果。 =)

有一天你会明白，善良比聪明更难。 聪明是一种天赋，而善良是一种选择!    我曾经是个善良的人但是这个世界的丑恶改变了我! 我只不过是想保护我自己,不受到欺负!  根本也没有任何要伤害别人的意思。  这世界太丑恶了!

going into my 6th year of marathon with SC !!!  to end this year 2012 with a bang ~ i managed to keep below 3.5hrs for my half marathon ~ i was so energetic and hyper =p my legs wasnt feeling cramp perhaps till the last few km ~ haha, i guess that's my best timing overall  *still feeling shameful about the other timings* no idea why, dont ask me!  i've nv train at all till 2 days before SC ~ all thanks to the person who 'force' me to jog then ~ or maybe the 2 bananas i ate this morning helps =p  p/s: looking into angkor wat marathon next year!!! any takers? =)