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  So that is why i will always just ask of you to be real with me and not perfect. I do not want your mask. instead, tell me about your nightmare, the memories, your sadness, your pain and heartache that scream you awake, and i will love you from there. Tell me about your childhood and the things you are still healing from &  i will love you there. Tell me about the parts of yourself you cannot look at without flinching, the parts of yourself that you are ashamed of, the mistakes that are dotted like museum exhibits along the corridor of your spine,  & i will love you from there. I do not need for you to be perpetually light filled and soft for me. That is all pretend. Just come to me as you are, stay true to yourself and i will love you as you are. I will love you in each season. will you love me too?

  Hello November ! The month to sparks joy for me! It has been a long 2 month of waiting. Thank god, it took maybe 1.5months to find this nest! It is gotten be my most expensive expenses for this trip to the North-East! And yes may this trip be the most exciting & memorable one!!! Time to look forward to my reno =) But if  if  if.... there is a chance.... i will still want to leave here....

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